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🌳 trahearne ([personal profile] pactmarshal) wrote2022-03-07 03:53 pm
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[personal profile] roseofmay 2022-10-05 07:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[...

His observation, assessment, these things are astute. Like recognises like, she would think. She finds more comfort in the companionship of those who are like her, oft because they have no need to pry her for information. Eustace rarely asks questions regarding her feelings and she suspects it is largely because he already knows the answers. Saves her the trouble of tripping over herself to give an answer or dealing with the complexity of trying to find words for feelings she tends to squash down under heel.

But Trahearne is right. She is the sort to simply remove herself from a situation. She does not like support, would claim she does not want it, does not need it, can get by on her own just fine, when in truth, she has to acknowledge that some part of her has been incredibly lonely for over ten years and likely longer than that. She lives in a hell of her own making because she's never bothered to try breaking out of it. Misery may be a sad place to thrive in, if one wants to call it thriving at all, but if it's familiar, why explore something foreign.

"...once that connection is gone... it never comes back."

And he's right about that, too. So right, in fact, that she pauses for several long moments to consider what she might need to say to others. What she might need them to hear if she can grasp the courage to make such a thing happen. Just in case she should wake a day later and find them no longer in this world.

...Would she leave Dohalim with nothing? A hard frown crosses her features, but lasts only moments before she looks over to him.]


When you require assistance, you may always call on me, even if it does not seem I would offer such kindness. This is not charity. It is not pity or sympathy. For all that I may be ice and stone, I care about you, and the others, in my own way. I may not be able to voice it easily, but the things that are important to all of you, who you may wish to be, where you may wish to go, what you may wish to accomplish, these things are important to me in turn. I would desire the prosperity, the providence, and the joys that life has to offer for each of you.
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[personal profile] everblooms 2022-10-05 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Don’t worry. I’m sure you’ll have plenty of time to make it up to me.

[ When he leaves the shop, coming back to her with their food and drinks, Aerith is sitting with her elbows on the table, feet swinging back and forth. It isn’t as if she couldn’t put the heavy soles of her boots onto the ground if she wanted, but it does stop as he unloads. Placing the basket between them catches her attention and she not so subtly looks from it to him, brows furrowing in what probably looks like a silly display. There’s only a moment of deliberation before she picks it up, and swaps seats with the basket so that they’re next to one another. Ahem. This isn’t an interview, Trahearne.

She doesn’t wait long to tuck in, though she steals a few glances to look at him, measuring his reaction before she speaks again. This isn’t the first time she’s had to close the gap between herself and someone else, but if he tries to move… ]


So, Trahearne.

[ Spoon in hand, she fusses with the broth, stirring it for a moment more… ]

Are you… actually alright?
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-06 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ori has hugged many a recovering friend - or at least tried to - so when he returns her embrace, she remains mindful of his lingering injuries.

And again, her heart stings and twists at the familiarity of his pain. With Colin, at least, the longing is put to rest by the fact that her other self - the one that is awake - remains with him, living out their life together. And even Thoma - who she may never see again - is happy and healthy in Teyvat.

But Trahearne has not that luxury… He is forever sundered from his commander by death, so while she knows that feeling of longing… She will never know the finality that must weigh on his hopes and dreams.

Still, though… It’s not so wrong to keep hoping, isn’t it? ]


It doesn’t have to be a farewell… It can be a “see you later.”

[ She takes a deep breath and hesitates before she adds, ]

The night that Thoma disappeared… I dreamt of him. He said… that he looks forward to meeting us again. I don’t know if it was really him, or if I was just dreaming in my grief, but… I want to believe those words, regardless.

And I believe them of you and your commander, too. That you two will meet again, some way. But until then… I think it’s okay to say “until we meet again.”
Edited (gently fixes typo ) 2022-10-06 12:38 (UTC)
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[personal profile] roseofmay 2022-10-06 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[She's not said any of this to get something in return. Initial instinct tells her she said it to reassure him, but maybe she's reassuring herself as well. That she isn't as heartless as she seems to think she is or has been. That she isn't all ice and stone and unwelcoming things.

Maybe... a part of her is afraid of the people here viewing her in such a way. When she realises she doesn't have an explanation for that and considers further that she is probably not ready to start diving into any of it, it may be for the best to simply let it go. Not to overthink it the way she seems to overthink everything else.

Clearing her throat, she shakes her head.]


Yes, well. I appreciate it. But this is becoming awkward.

[So instead—

Beatrix lifts the last remaining pieces of fruit she's been holding onto.]


Show me where I can put these and then I am going to get out of your hair.

[...Not that she would say he really has hair. Whatever. She's already said it. She's already embarrassed herself plenty on this day. What's one more stupid thing coming out of her mouth.]
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DIS A WRAP WRAP, I THINK.

[personal profile] roseofmay 2022-10-07 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[She smiles. Light. Subdued. Nigh inconspicuous. There all the same.

Her posture stiffens, or perhaps it's never really loosened to begin with, and Beatrix dips her chin in a wordless acknowledgement, inwardly pleased he's found favour with what she's picked out for him. He wishes her well and she finds that she reflects the very same feelings toward him.

Beatrix falls into habits of old, bending at the waist in a polite bow before she raises again.]


Likewise, Trahearne. If you have need of anything, you know how to reach me. I can see myself out.
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-11 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Much must be going through Trahearne’s mind in this moment, and she stays silent and still, affording him as long or as short of one as he needs to think about everything. The resignation that she hears in his voice breaks her heart, makes pain lance through her chest in empathy. She'll never know what it's like, but she knows loss and the insurmountable distance between this realm and a lost love.

Perhaps it's a coward's goodbye, to say until we meet again. But in light of everything that's happened as of late... She thinks that Trahearne deserves to have even a little bit of hope. It's not fair, otherwise. Just like it's not fair that her dear friend has only the finality of death awaiting him outside of this dream realm. So damn it, he of all people should be allowed to have hope. ]


You're welcome. And it's... It's alright. I understand now why you were so upset. I don't hold it against you.
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-24 01:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Say, Trahearne...

Do sylvari have birthdays? Do you celebrate them?
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-24 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh... That's right.

It's been almost a year since I became a part of this dream realm... So my own birthday must have passed recently. I was just curious about how others think of birthdays.
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-24 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure...

I haven't celebrated my birthday in a long time.
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-24 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
When Diluc's birthday happened we did something very quiet for it. But it was mostly Thoma's idea, and now he's not here, so I don't really know what to do...?

I'm out in the woods.


[ just Ori things. ]
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-24 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Are you at the Archives?

And that's true, but... I would hate to take up people's time with something like that?
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-25 01:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you like try some fruits I foraged in the forest? I can bring them to you.

Thank you, Trahearne. That's very sweet of you to say. I'll have to think about it. I definitely wouldn't want it to be a big party or anything like that, maybe just cake and tea like you said... Ah, it's too bad that Aerith has gone...
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-25 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, because when I thought of who to invite to a small get-together, I thought of our strange little adventuring party.

[ that is what she is calling the misery gang, apparently. ]

I was only just starting to get to know her. But you were friends with her, weren't you?

PS - I'm going to take the scenic route out of the Wildlands, so I'll be by in about an hour or so.

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