His observation, assessment, these things are astute. Like recognises like, she would think. She finds more comfort in the companionship of those who are like her, oft because they have no need to pry her for information. Eustace rarely asks questions regarding her feelings and she suspects it is largely because he already knows the answers. Saves her the trouble of tripping over herself to give an answer or dealing with the complexity of trying to find words for feelings she tends to squash down under heel.
But Trahearne is right. She is the sort to simply remove herself from a situation. She does not like support, would claim she does not want it, does not need it, can get by on her own just fine, when in truth, she has to acknowledge that some part of her has been incredibly lonely for over ten years and likely longer than that. She lives in a hell of her own making because she's never bothered to try breaking out of it. Misery may be a sad place to thrive in, if one wants to call it thriving at all, but if it's familiar, why explore something foreign.
"...once that connection is gone... it never comes back."
And he's right about that, too. So right, in fact, that she pauses for several long moments to consider what she might need to say to others. What she might need them to hear if she can grasp the courage to make such a thing happen. Just in case she should wake a day later and find them no longer in this world.
...Would she leave Dohalim with nothing? A hard frown crosses her features, but lasts only moments before she looks over to him.]
When you require assistance, you may always call on me, even if it does not seem I would offer such kindness. This is not charity. It is not pity or sympathy. For all that I may be ice and stone, I care about you, and the others, in my own way. I may not be able to voice it easily, but the things that are important to all of you, who you may wish to be, where you may wish to go, what you may wish to accomplish, these things are important to me in turn. I would desire the prosperity, the providence, and the joys that life has to offer for each of you.
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His observation, assessment, these things are astute. Like recognises like, she would think. She finds more comfort in the companionship of those who are like her, oft because they have no need to pry her for information. Eustace rarely asks questions regarding her feelings and she suspects it is largely because he already knows the answers. Saves her the trouble of tripping over herself to give an answer or dealing with the complexity of trying to find words for feelings she tends to squash down under heel.
But Trahearne is right. She is the sort to simply remove herself from a situation. She does not like support, would claim she does not want it, does not need it, can get by on her own just fine, when in truth, she has to acknowledge that some part of her has been incredibly lonely for over ten years and likely longer than that. She lives in a hell of her own making because she's never bothered to try breaking out of it. Misery may be a sad place to thrive in, if one wants to call it thriving at all, but if it's familiar, why explore something foreign.
"...once that connection is gone... it never comes back."
And he's right about that, too. So right, in fact, that she pauses for several long moments to consider what she might need to say to others. What she might need them to hear if she can grasp the courage to make such a thing happen. Just in case she should wake a day later and find them no longer in this world.
...Would she leave Dohalim with nothing? A hard frown crosses her features, but lasts only moments before she looks over to him.]
When you require assistance, you may always call on me, even if it does not seem I would offer such kindness. This is not charity. It is not pity or sympathy. For all that I may be ice and stone, I care about you, and the others, in my own way. I may not be able to voice it easily, but the things that are important to all of you, who you may wish to be, where you may wish to go, what you may wish to accomplish, these things are important to me in turn. I would desire the prosperity, the providence, and the joys that life has to offer for each of you.