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[ It’s an odd thing to say, she knows. It’s not like most people just come out with it, but Aerith’s not like other people. She has no reason to be. The world has built her up in certain ways, the people of Gaia holding her to strange ultimatums and ideas, and it’s all Aerith has to be herself in the face of everything else. When Trahearne asks what she means, then, she thinks of her mother and Elmyra, and she thinks of Cloud and Tifa, and she thinks of all the people she’s met in the world who lost everything and had to rebuild it. The trust you find in others, pockets of forgiveness and togetherness, a wholly new experience that keeps you sane— that’s what she’s considering when she looks at him, doe-eyed, amused, and a tiny bit confused. ]

When you worry about somebody, it’s an act of care. You choose to do it. Don’t you think… people should be choosing to care about you, too?

[ Not that she’d ever say it, but there’s something about him that at once makes her feel at ease and a little bit uncomfortable. Trahearne is, you see, the closest thing to another Cetra she thinks she might ever meet. Ori may have powers like her own, but there’s something about Trahearne’s origins that sticks to Aerith like honey sticks to toast, or the same way cream melts into coffee.

It makes her think of the tired woman who carried her away from her mother’s body, who took her home and made her feel cared about. ]

Sometimes, we just have to accept it. That we’re cared about, even if it’s not always the ways we want to be cared about. You can’t do every tiny bit on your own.

[ He simply watches her speak, studying the minute changes in her expression as thoughts unknowable to him roll through her mind. What he sees is just a glimpse of what he senses to be consideration for others that runs deep. Her speech calms him; he feels bad that he flew off the handle when Ori essentially said the same thing to him. But then again, he's feeling much better now. That isn't her fault.

You can't do every tiny bit on your own. He knows this logically, and he has told himself over and over that he's not alone. The way they all come together, come to him in the aftermath of distressing events should tell him this. Yet he always finds himself putting himself to the side and others first.

Old habits die hard, he supposes. ]

I think you're right. I admit, it's not something I'm used to. Circumstances at home often meant I was the one looking after others, and rarely the other way around. You'll have to forgive me if the transition is...not as smooth as it should be.

[ He opens his mouth slightly, I hope you'll let me worry for you, regardless, dying in his throat as he does. That probably goes without saying, but the phrase embarrasses him, for some reason.

He clears his throat. ]

Speaking of care...

[ The smile comes back to him, growing slightly over his face. His eyes flit to the cafe beside them, an empty little table accompanied by two chairs sitting outside the window. There isn't anyone else inside or around, considering the time of day. ]

Would you care to stop for refreshments before we head onward? My treat.

[ It’s impossible to not be charmed by him in some way. Maybe it’s the idea that she has to forgive him for something that simple— it’s not going to inconvenience her one bit if he’s a bit difficult about letting her fuss over him from time to time. It’s himself he needs to apologize to, for not finding the part of himself to unlock and let that in sooner. In some ways, Aerith muses, he must be his own worst enemy. When she looks up at Trahearne to stare at his golden eyes, she thinks he looks like he’s wrestling with a number of things now. Maybe she’s not really helped at the end of the day. Who is to say?

He doesn’t really have to say it. Too many people have wanted her to let them care for her in their lives— thank goodness, she thinks, that he’s more like the charmers in the slums and less like a hulking tower of a man that visits her in her nightmares. She may not know what it is that makes him this way, but she welcomes it in some respects; it makes him easier to tease, she thinks.

The fastest way to her heart, however, is food. Her gaze breaks from staring at him to look at the little chalkboard sign, leaning closer on the tips of her toes. She reads the scratchy white letters for barely more than a second before she gasps and grabs his hand, tightly, already pulling him in. ] Trahearne, look! They have pumpkin drinks! That’s so incredible…

[ The slums never had the luxury of seasonal drinks. It tickles her a little, to think of commercials broadcast from the towers near the reactors, things that they’d never have, reminders of the city overhead that walked on them daily.

He doesn’t know it, yet, as it is, but he’s been taking care of her little by little. She remembers how boldly he says things like he wanted to see her fight something more powerful than a monkey, how he respects her as a warrior and… a friend, perhaps. She hopes. Too often is it that people coddle her. ]

[ The thought he could be charming has never crossed Trahearne's mind. People at home rarely had a favorable opinion of him, much less thought he had any sort of charm. It's the last thing he'd think of himself as.

In the split second after she grabs his hand, he looks down, allowing her to pull him into the cafe. And in that split second, he thinks. He thinks of all the people he's met so far, all of whom have been kind and understanding and exceedingly friendly to him. But all of them, he realizes, had sensed the walls and barriers he had put up around himself. They respected the arm's length he's kept them at, happy to step closer only when he allowed them to. And slowly but surely, he's found his friends this way--a slow, quiet strengthening of bonds.

But then comes Aerith, tearing down his walls and barriers and inviting herself in, making herself at home, cheering him on and showing up out of the blue with apples and expressing her pride for him and now, grabbing his hand and leading him into the cafe like it was her own idea to begin with.

And while she's not looking, he cracks a little smile. She reminds him of someone.

The cafe itself is not very big--there's a display counter with some pies and cakes and a lone shopkeeper stands behind the register. They greet them with a smile as Trahearne's gaze drifts up to the cluttered menu of drinks and food on the wall above them, trying to see if he fancies treating himself to something than his usual black coffee. ]

Aerith. [ He murmurs, eyes still on the menu, gently nudging her in the arm. Does she still have a hold on his hand? He hasn't checked. ] It's not your mother's, but they do have chicken noodle soup.

[ And he glances at her curiously. Maybe he'll get a cup of it. ]

[ Inside the shop, there is a cornucopia of choice for her to marvel at. It is overwhelming in some respects; being from the slums, she has never seen so much choice before. It’s usually a “to order” sort of situation at cafes and the like, with few exceptions. When she finally lets go of his hand, she’s leaning over to peer into the display case, green eyes sparkling like jewels. He hums a happy little tune then, as Aerith leans this way and that way. Marveling at the sweets without abandon, she barely cares about how silly it must look.

She’s terribly glad she mustered up the energy to get up and seek him out, specifically. When Trahearne’s voice interrupts her thoughts, she looks up at him, tilts her head, and registers what he’s saying a moment later before standing up right, beaming again. This is a cause for very serious consideration. ]

Two cups of chicken noodle soup, please!

[ He doesn’t get a choice— in truth, it’s not her mother’s soup, but a cup of something warm and relaxing with a friend is just as important and lovely to her. She’s not had the chance before, and making up for it sounds delightful. ]

[ Trahearne's no different, really, with how he stands there and gapes at the sheer amount of choice on the menu. This is a very human thing--so rigid, so specific.

He glances at her as she stands and gives her order, and he can't help a brief chuckle. ]

How did you know?

[ In truth, he'd been thinking about chicken noodle soup ever since she brought it up. Weird how ideas like that planted themselves in one's mind and took root. That he brought it up at all should have been clue enough for her, he supposes.

With a smile, he directs his attention to the person behind the counter and adds to the order, ] And two pumpkin spice lattes, please.

[ He isn't sure about that...but he'll try it.

The shopkeeper informs him of the price and immediately gets to preparing their food and drinks. Trahearne quickly pays for it, and turns back to Aerith as he's putting his wallet away. ]

I pass this place almost every day, but I have never been inside. And I don't think I ever would have if you hadn't found me. [ A smile grows across his face. ] Thank you, Aerith.

[ There’s something about what he says— the implication that her presence is better than the absence of it, that gets to her. Aerith stares for a moment, hunched over to stare into the display again, with her hands on her knees. Silently, she just looks at him, and thinks about being alone in the trainyard; that moment is what kept her from falling deeper into a deathly slumber, she thinks to herself, and when she stands straight again, there’s a tiny, warm smile on her face.

Without another word, she closes the distance between them, only to land a very familiar, very careful playful smack upon his arm, without the intention of him. ] And here I thought I was coming to cheer you up!

[ It’s the most she says about her own state, beaming the whole long way, before moving to pass him. The seats outside are too tempting, and she’s not going to stand still and wait. She never has. ]

Oh, and…

[ Stopping at the now open door, Aerith looks to Trahearne over her shoulder, her smile far more mischievous now than it had been. She didn’t tell him how she knew, though part of her thinks he had just been brushing aside how stubborn she is. Her mother had thought of her as such, at least. ]

I have my ways.

[ Of just knowing.

With that, she walks out into the sunlight again, arranging a table for them eagerly. There’s three chairs; one next to her, and one across. Does he take the bait? Hmm. ]

[ Trahearne studies her as she moves; as he looks back at her, he wonders what's going on in her mind. What is she thinking of in response to his thanks?

The answer surprises him a little bit, and he instinctively reaches to rub the spot she smacked. It doesn't hurt, of course. He doesn't even think about the motion. It's more an act of wonder; if thanks was enough to cheer her up, then he would readily give it. He has plenty of gratitude, after all, for many things. Including her.

That thought, however, puzzles him. His gaze follows her as she moves to the exit, and what she says registers just barely in his mind.

Where did that come from?

The shopkeeper's announcement that their food and drinks are ready snaps him back into reality. With a brief word of thanks he scoops up the tray and takes it outside.

It isn't long after Aerith that Trahearne emerges, carefully balancing the tray of soups and lattes in his hands and the basket of apples in one arm. ]

I hope I didn't keep you waiting.

[ He gently sets down the tray on the table, angled so that Aerith is free to pick whichever soup or latte she likes. The basket of apples goes to rest on the chair between them, and Trahearne takes his place in the chair opposite. ]

It smells delightful.

[ And he unceremoniously reaches for whichever soup and latte is left over. ]

Don’t worry. I’m sure you’ll have plenty of time to make it up to me.

[ When he leaves the shop, coming back to her with their food and drinks, Aerith is sitting with her elbows on the table, feet swinging back and forth. It isn’t as if she couldn’t put the heavy soles of her boots onto the ground if she wanted, but it does stop as he unloads. Placing the basket between them catches her attention and she not so subtly looks from it to him, brows furrowing in what probably looks like a silly display. There’s only a moment of deliberation before she picks it up, and swaps seats with the basket so that they’re next to one another. Ahem. This isn’t an interview, Trahearne.

She doesn’t wait long to tuck in, though she steals a few glances to look at him, measuring his reaction before she speaks again. This isn’t the first time she’s had to close the gap between herself and someone else, but if he tries to move… ]

So, Trahearne.

[ Spoon in hand, she fusses with the broth, stirring it for a moment more… ]

Are you… actually alright?

[ The sudden movement out of the corner of his eye catches his attention, and Trahearne freezes mid-bite (does one call it a bite when the food in question is essentially liquid?). The spoon remains in his mouth and he watches, wide-eyed, as Aerith moves the basket of apples and quickly rearranges herself and settles in beside him. What follows is nothing like he's ever experienced before; he simply stares back into emerald, wondering why she ultimately decided to sit there and not where he could easily see her. The atmosphere isn't quite awkward, but he is...surprised. He'll leave it at that.

When she speaks, he finally swallows and sets his spoon down, turning his attention to his coffee cup instead. As he brings it to his lips, he pauses again when she asks him the question.

The temptation to say yes is very strong, but if this incident taught them anything, it was that it's best to be honest when it comes to these things. Especially since he sort of has a feeling that this is the true purpose of the visit, much like how Ori and Beatrix came to see him several days prior. He stares into the ripples of his drink, breathing in the sweet scent of cinnamon. ]

...I'm not entirely sure. [ He blinks, and for a second, he can see his own hazy reflection in the cup. He looks tired. ] I'm not sleeping well. I thought I was healing all right, but my staff sent me home once I arrived at the archives. [ Which is why he's on his route home so early.

A lopsided smile crosses his face as he looks up at her again. ] Though I suppose that's for the best, since it led me to you.

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