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🌳 trahearne ([personal profile] pactmarshal) wrote2022-03-07 03:53 pm
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-09-29 02:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ever in-tune with other’s emotions, the moment that he starts to panic in turn, she realizes that it’s her doing and steels herself, taking in a deep breath and focusing less on the fact that he’s just told her about the intimate nature of his dreams and more on the fact that they are truly, deeply bothering him.

The moment that he begins to speak of regret, the panic dissipates entirely, and in its place settles a will to support her friend completely. She reaches out to take a careful hold of his wrist and leans in to try and catch his gaze. ]


Hey— none of that, now. This is not your doing or your fault.

[ She squeezes his wrist gently with a reassuring grip. ]

I’m really grateful that you showed me so much of your home and your history in that dreamscape. And that I got to meet your commander. I never would have gotten to meet him otherwise. The dreams of this world can be a blessing or a curse, but we can’t go regretting the happy dreams that we have. Otherwise, all we’ll have are nightmares.

[ And they have both seen what happens when there are only nightmares. ]
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-04 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ She sees that conflicted expression and hears the pain in his voice, and she offers him a sympathetic look. It would be foolish of her to act as if she hasn’t dreamt of Thoma in the months since his departure; so she understands, in a way. Given how he’d reacted to her bringing up her own experiences in the moments that have since passed, she decides not to say anything. She’s woken up from such dreams with such a feeling of confusion and even more so: a profound sadness for what she no longer has. It’s not the same, and she wouldn’t ever pretend that it could be the same.

But she gets it. ]


I’m sorry, Trahearne. It must be so wonderful and painful all at once…

[ Carefully, she pulls him into a hug. It’s reminiscent of the time he’d woken up from his sleep coma with a frightful nightmare; there are no nightmares this time, but many of the same sentiments remain. Regret. Grief. A longing left hanging forevermore. ]

Have you tried saying goodbye to him? In a dream?
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-06 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ori has hugged many a recovering friend - or at least tried to - so when he returns her embrace, she remains mindful of his lingering injuries.

And again, her heart stings and twists at the familiarity of his pain. With Colin, at least, the longing is put to rest by the fact that her other self - the one that is awake - remains with him, living out their life together. And even Thoma - who she may never see again - is happy and healthy in Teyvat.

But Trahearne has not that luxury… He is forever sundered from his commander by death, so while she knows that feeling of longing… She will never know the finality that must weigh on his hopes and dreams.

Still, though… It’s not so wrong to keep hoping, isn’t it? ]


It doesn’t have to be a farewell… It can be a “see you later.”

[ She takes a deep breath and hesitates before she adds, ]

The night that Thoma disappeared… I dreamt of him. He said… that he looks forward to meeting us again. I don’t know if it was really him, or if I was just dreaming in my grief, but… I want to believe those words, regardless.

And I believe them of you and your commander, too. That you two will meet again, some way. But until then… I think it’s okay to say “until we meet again.”
Edited (gently fixes typo ) 2022-10-06 12:38 (UTC)
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[personal profile] hearthwarming 2022-10-11 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Much must be going through Trahearne’s mind in this moment, and she stays silent and still, affording him as long or as short of one as he needs to think about everything. The resignation that she hears in his voice breaks her heart, makes pain lance through her chest in empathy. She'll never know what it's like, but she knows loss and the insurmountable distance between this realm and a lost love.

Perhaps it's a coward's goodbye, to say until we meet again. But in light of everything that's happened as of late... She thinks that Trahearne deserves to have even a little bit of hope. It's not fair, otherwise. Just like it's not fair that her dear friend has only the finality of death awaiting him outside of this dream realm. So damn it, he of all people should be allowed to have hope. ]


You're welcome. And it's... It's alright. I understand now why you were so upset. I don't hold it against you.